Balance

So, this morning I woke up after having a pretty ridiculous fight with someone inportant to me last night... And I have decided to talk about my feelings more openly than I used to.

Generally when something is wrong with me, I don't like to talk about it. I just mope and get pissed off at people for no real reason, and take it out on them.
People close to me always ask what's bothering me and I just don't want to tell them, which in turn makes them angry as well. Eventually this whole process turns into this big whirlpool of bad emotions that it erupts arguments all around me.

Hence, I have come to the conclusion that miscommuniation is the cause of most of my arguments.

I need to let people know when I am upset, so they can take that into consideration, and either try and cheer me up or leave me alone. If I don't tell them and they keep talking and hacking at me, then of course I'm going to get angry; so that's my own fault.
I don't know why I think people don't understand me, but I know there's one boy who does.
So when I fight with him, it's like no one cares about me, like I'm worthless, weak...
I'm not asking him to change, we just need to work through the rough patches sometimes...
If you remember anything my blog tells you, remember this:

Our weaknesses are the key to finding our strengths.

My partner is my weakness and my strength. So all in all, he's basically my life.We have our downs (very rarely, but they happen) but soon enough we're flying again.
It's not that I ever want to fight, I just feel like we understand each other better sometimes when we do.

I just hope he sticks around.